The world as we see it, is a direct reflection of how Chaotic we are inside.
     I have been lead to believe this is due to the fact that we chose to recreate ourselves to be like those around us in childhood.
     Now you may say this is not the case. If at any time you said in yourself, I want to be like? Then you chose to look at yourself as less than that someone. Then you started to shift to be acceptable in your own opinion of yourself, for that person.
   Sit with that for a moment, if that is the case, then we chose to oppress ourselves to be acceptable to others. Be it Mom, Dad, Brother, Sister, to be in a group of friends or social status. In this we are saying within ourselves, others are better than I. It is all a guessing game in, how will I fit in to wherever I choose?  Being our true self or being true to ourselves was never an option, in our own opinion.
     It is no wonder things seem to be so crazy, as we have allowed the other part of us to run the show. There is a constant conversation going on inside each one of us, it is between you and your mind.
     I know that sounds crazy also yet, this is how we create things like art, stories, invent. In these conversations some say “Talking to yourself is ok as long as you do not answer yourself” How do you think a story is told, written, a picture is painted, or music is created?
     Not knowing our other partner inside is the only issue, and it is the creator of all our issues until recognized.
   Even if this sounds crazy to you, I will give you yet another part.
  If that voice in your head is you, then who or what    is listening?
            Thank you...Daniel James Wilson
         

Butting heads;
       I believe this comes with a lack of knowing what one is. Yes, I said what not who! There are many mental abstracts as to "Who we are" and the question "Who am I" is the set up for that because, it requires a comparison to others for that determination. So we are all trying to prove our right to be acceptable within ourselves in comparison.
       This is all Mind, Ego, thought! If we realize we are the energy that is giving thought it's ability, then we can step into a new perspective. What we are is energy and energy has no thought in and of it self. Yet, before thought you where and that required no explanation. Entering this world we now have a mind where we are trying to explain who we are. To realize we are the energy that gives this form animation and this includes the mind, will help you find the real you, and it is a “what.” What you are is felt not thought, and we are limitless when we loose our limiting thoughts.
 What say you?
Thank you........Daniel James Wilson

​How Do I Love Myself? Let Me Count The Ways...
    1) I will not judge myself
    2) I will not assume in any way.
    3) I will not want to be like:
     Mom, Dad, Brother, Sister or anyone else.
   This would be the same as thinking, “I don’t want to be me,” and I would become oppressive to me.       
    4) I will be in compassion for myself:
           If I do not make mistakes I cannot learn.
           Without one we would not know the other.
     5)I will allow myself to be humble, vulnerable, innocent:By thinking I have to defend myself is how I allowed my mind to take over in childhood. The “mind” or my thought’s created guilty and thinking guilty is the opposite of being innocent, etc.
     6)I will not be afraid of what others might think of me:This would be an assumption that I make real when I react to that assumption. Or a Judgment within myself, and it is saying the other is more important than me.
   7)I will not want:Because in ‘the wanting,’ the ‘what is,’ is not what I want and I am comparing.
   8)I will not compare myself to anyone:This would be saying someone else is better or worse than me and is a judgment in assumption or not true.
   9)Unconditional Love is without these conditions:My judgments, My fears, My wants. These three are always reacting together. If I am judging I am also in fear and in want. This is a cycle and can be interchanged with all three; if I’m in fear, I’m wanting. If I’m wanting, I’m judging, etc. This is a cycle of my issues and these are not love.
    10) I will allow myself to see past the illusions created in my mind
by learning what I chose to allow my mind to create:
No thought is real unless I choose to bring that thought into reality by my reaction to that thought.
To love myself I can choose again and live in peace within. As I create peace and love within me, others may learn.
Love, Daniel James Wilson
Author of: “The Best Kept Secret is You: A journey Into the Rabbit Hole With Autism and Love”

There is a paradox that happens when judging a situation. There is a point when it is noticeable that other people’s frustrations are a result of their own judgments of themselves. This can be a turning point in noticing. If we react to these frustrations from the other person, this is then a judgment within ourselves. Any ‘reaction’ is bringing a judgment into reality.
         We would now be giving an illusion life.
​Daniel J. Wilson

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             I’m an observer. In my early years of growing up I was usually quiet. I would watch my mother in just about everything she did especially her interaction with men. As I watched, I saw who she was and what she did. I watched her body language, expressions, and tone of voice. I had no idea what it took to survive. I was caught up in what I saw in an attempt to understand what was going on. My father was gone and she was trying to make things work with four sons and a limited income.
            A mother is self- sacrificing of her own well being to take care of her children and my mother was no different. She learned that she could be and have what she needed if she could develop the interest of men to help her with her income while searching for that one special person.
           Unfortunately she didn’t realize the impact of her actions as we were all watching. She was doing what she thought was best. And I was assuming many things as I watched. I could see when she was real, and when she wasn’t. The men she was involved with did not seem to notice her shifts. In my youth this became my assumption in doubt, and the set up for my fear of women. I didn’t know what my fear of women was until I started writing. And part way through this book (The Best kept secret is “You” A journey into the rabbit hole with Autism and Love) my writing seemed to stop and the book sat for about three weeks. I discovered that I had not gone far enough back into my past. So deeper I went and as I wrote I discovered my fear was based in the assumption that all women were the same as my mother and I could not trust what I heard or saw.
           What I also discovered was my mother had assumed all women were the same as her. This led her into not trusting our wives or girlfriends or any women we became involved with. She had become lost in her survival to provide for her kids. She also could not trust men as the men she became involved with were married men, had girlfriends, or were involved with others. It was in this, that she thought no one was real. Her mind was now leading her into a fear of everyone. The fear she was now experiencing, was like a fantasy of evil all around her and she could not escape.
          Her critic in self-judgment had become huge. She was judging everything from her past as wrong. Living in her guilt now, she felt as though someone or some group was going to pay her back. She didn’t like herself, and no one else could, because of how she thought of herself. She had not lost her mind it was the reverse; she had allowed her mind to create her reality to the point where she didn’t know what was real or what was an illusion. Her mind was now creating a nightmare of assumptions; of people’s words, their body language, and a fear that no one was real.
          In her final years she traveled around in her car, living in it, running from everyone. She did not know she was running from her own minds creation and she did not know that a thought is not real, until we act or respond to that thought! My Mother is no longer with us, and she did teach me a lot just by being who she thought and assumed she had to be.
         What we assume in our own judgment becomes our reality. We do have a choice, if we know what the choices are.
                   Daniel James Wilson

        Simply put this means knowing the difference between you and your mind.
        We are not forceful beings and we have allowed the mind to be reactive for us.
        We are not taught what we truly are, and we “think” we are alone. So, we are surviving what we “think” is reality, that we allowed our minds to build/create.                                                                  Point being;
    1) None of us wants to harm anyone. This is not in our nature, as we learn to become harmful to ourselves we become harmful to others.
    2) None of us wants to be harmed. This is about learning how, we become harmful to ourselves.
    3) Comparison is not in our nature. This is our minds way of finding a safe response or way to be. In this we are oppressed by our minds.
    4) Confusion is not in our nature. This comes from our minds attempting to do the right thing according to what “it thinks” would be acceptable.
    5) Envy is not in our nature. This comes from comparing ourselves to others and the judgment within ourselves that the other is better than us in some way.
   6) Anger is not in our nature. Anger comes from our own oppression in confusion and frustration. The mind is trying to figure things out for the right response or action.
   7) Fear is not in our nature. This is something that we are usually assuming and in so doing we are creating what is feared.
  8) Wanting /not wanting what someone else has is not in our nature. This also is part of the thoughts within ourselves that would give us a sense of worth, this means we think we are lacking.
  9) Being reactive is not in our nature. These are responses from the mind learned as we where growing up. This has become the mind responding to its own thoughts in assumption.
  10) Being angry, fighting, confused, doubtful, frustrated, war’s, money, right, wrong and all of the above are because we are not aware of what we have allowed our minds to create. Like a false self that has its own agenda.
        So in essence knowing the different programs we allowed our minds to create allows us to see and realize our essence. Or what we choose to believe, we can choose again. This can help use uncover our true being
        This is because, as we where growing up we allowed the mind to set up shop as our defender from a world we knew was not as we are. So we allowed the mind to begin hiding the innocence we are. We learned to be guilty, when the only thing we are guilty of, is not knowing our minds.

                        Answer; To truly live!
        Truth, Peace, To relearn to truly love our essence!
 We cannot love another, if we do not know how, to love ourselves.
        This is when we find peace, when we break free of the minds construct. 
By Daniel James Wilson (D.J.W.)